Random thoughts by... well me :)

So I have been doing a lot of thinking lately. Seems like I do a lot of it, and talking, and writing. I thought I would share some quotes that have helped me through this difficult time in my life.

"The Lord takes many away even in infancy, that they may escape the envy of man and the sorrows and evils of this present world; they were too pure, too lovely, to live on this earth. Therefore, if rightly considered, instead of mourning we have reason to rejoice as they are delivered from evil and we shall have them again. The only difference between the old and the young dying is, one lives longer in heaven and eternal light and glory than the other, and is freed a little sooner from this miserable world." -Spencer W. Kimball, Faith Preceeds the Miracle. p. 103

I have always felt that Daxton was a special spirit. For almost a year I gave up everything, cleaning, cooking, laundry, and I just spent time with him. I tried not to neglect the girls to much, but when I was frustrated with them, I would just go hold Daxton and feel of his love. I would cuddle him and coddle him and give him anything he wanted. I just wanted to be near him. I knew he was special.

I remember distinctly one day I was over at my moms and my dad was holding Daxton on the table and he looked at me and said, "this is one special human being who will accomplish great things." I thought about that over the last few weeks and really know that it is true. He truly was too perfect, too pure, and too lovely to live on this earth. I know that now in my head. ( I just need my heart to comply a little better :) ).

The other quote I want to share is

"When a mother is deprived of the pleasure and joy of rearing her babe to manhood or to womanhood in this life, through the hand of death, that privilege will be renewed to her hereafter, and she will enjoy it to a fuller fruition that it would be possible for her to do here. When she does it there, it will be with the certain knowledge that the results will be without failure; whereas here, the results are unknown until after we have passed the test." Joseph F Smith, Gospel Doctrine p 453

I was actually talking to a friend the other day about this. She asked me if I ever thought about Daxton being big. Right now he is in the Spirit world teaching the gospel to others and I know this. But I liked him little. I don't want to think of him big, because I really liked him little. So for now, I guess the answer would be no, I don't think of him as big, because I am not ready for that. I do know that his spirit was too big for his body though. He had a great work to do and while it is not here on this earth, he is heaven making a difference.

I appreciate all the comments and visitors of our blog. I didn't realize how many people actually read it until I got letters or notes or emails. I will try to do better posting. I also appreciate all the prayers and services offered on our behalf. Thank you so much.

Love to all