Happy Birthday Chubba Wubba

Wow I seriously cannot believe that you would be 5 years old. I wonder what you would be doing now. I see your cousins, or your would be friends and they are all so grown up. 

You would be starting kindergarten in the fall. I can't hardly believe it. Oh how I long to wrap my arms around you and hold you on my lap, kiss your forehead, and listen to your endless chatter. 

There was a time in my life that I thought I would never make it this far without you, yet here I am. And there you are. And I have made it this far without you. Someday my little man, Someday.... just not today. 

We got family pictures a little while back. Actually almost 4 years to the day (before you died). We had had the same photographer do them for us. It was incredible. Maybe you can tell me your faves, because I am having a hard time :).

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SOOO what are your faves?

Isabella's #3 BIRTHDAY

My little Princess is 3!!! I can hardly believe it. And since the last 17.89 posts have been about her, I will just post some pics from her birthday party. It was quite the bash. She got lots of fun things and really loves her "wagger" (it is a stick with strings on it LOL!)

She loves the two twins. She can't stop talking about A.Z. and his hip hop (from Angelina Ballerina). In fact, Dora and Angelina brought her Christmas presents this year, she just couldn't fathom that Santa Claus did!!! She loves to take Macey for a walk. She can make Mac n Cheese by herself (the little microwaveable ones, but she is really close to the stove top one too). She loves to help in the kitchen, from dishes to baking cookies to making dinner. The other day I was chopping green peppers and she really wanted to help and so she started ripping the green peppers into tiny pieces.

I totally used them and no one was any the wiser. She loves anything princess, tutus, skirts (not the same thing), shoes, dressing herself, books, movies, etc. She loves to go to the museum, eat peanut butter sandwiches on the couch while watching a show before nap time, and snuggling right when she wakes up. Most mornings you will hear her asking mommy or daddy to lay by her in our bed and snuggle. She loves it!

She is a big helper to her little sister. She is quite opinionated... just ask her. She likes to make up songs and hip hop and dances and she loves to sing them songs and dance them dances. She is sweet as candy and tart as lemon juice. But we love love love her and wouldn't trade her for the world.

We really love her.

Baby Whisperer #3

Day #3: Now we are on night #3. I know that you all are laughing at me at this point, and I am crying in my pillow at night out of frustration... so THERE!!!

Suggestion: #3 set limits on snuggle time #4 create a magic blanket for comfort

Isabella slept mostly ok last night... she is such a toot!!! At 4 am, she wakes up screaming for mommy and daddy to come in to get her. So we had Angelina come by and drop off a "magic blanket" that will comfort her at night when she is scared.

While laying by her for said time, she says, "mommy, remember last night when you were not talking to me? Mommy, talk to me, ok.?" And my heart breaks... but I have to hold fast!!! My life, as I can see, has been run by this little princess for far too long. I have to get her on a schedule for when I go back to work (in 2 days) and this is the only way to do it. Although it's killin me!

She only comes down the ladder twice tonight and is asleep by 8:15. Success!